circa 2005

I miss these people =(

.:. AphiO Ski Trip - Jan. 2005

quarter life crisis

i was randomly browsing through people's blogs, and noticed one that Warren g wrote a while back. in fact, i didnt even know he had a blog until i was linked through Gare Bear's facebook HAHA! in any case, as i was reading this, i couldnt help but relate entirely with the entry. i'll post the entry on my blog. don't worry war, you're getting all the credit for this one!!....actually, was it even you that wrote this? lol

What is Quarter Life Crisis?

Posted on October 19th, 2007 in Personal Development by Warren

Interesting read that should be somewhat relate-able to a lot of us.

They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as u. You look at your job…and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself…..and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

5 airlines...

....1 month

from the end of September til today, I realized that I've traveled on 5 different airlines. i think this just goes to show the variability in the airfare market. i bought each ticket based on best pricing. i kinda wish all these airlines were in one alliance, cuz then i'd have hella frequent flier miles by now =( ironically, im a mileage member for 3/5 of these airlines....sigh....

good news is that i dont have anymore trips for the rest of the year. no trips = no more hole in my wallet. but who knows....i might end up taking an ad-hoc trip anyway =P

tuesday morning gmail jibber

so for all of you who don't know... my high school friends and I have a G-Mail thread that we all participate in to emancipate us from the grips of corporate hell while at work (needless to say, save us from insanity). this morning's conversation took a turn for the sexually frustrated and kinky. it all started with wanting to set up a dinner for tonight....

Jevon: wait so does that mean dinner is canceled?
Scott: not necessarily...you guys could still go!
Steven: if i'm not going, then there really is no necessity for any of you to go out to dinner.
Scott: word up.
Jevon: two words for u scott...first one rhymes with suck. second one rhymes with up.
Scott: why would i have to suck up to bra? i already have him sucking my dick. hahaha! jk bra...jk...
Claire: I miss you guys so much...and gosh boys you guys are sooo immature... always about dicks and pussies!
Jevon: i miss claire's p*ssy
Jevon: ooo silly mr. beaver...
Scott: damn jev...you and your muffburgers
Claire: LoL ... soooo ridiculous
Steven: i dont suck your dick, i just eat your muffin top :P
Claire: Very disturbing!!! you guys should stop there
Scott: wait a minute..i dont have a muffin top..i have a cupcake!
Jevon: wait that describes the same type tho doesnt it? or am i picturing it wrong.
Jevon: the other type could be called a bacon wrapped hotdog.
Steven: jevon! how'd u know it taste like bacon?? and i apologize, i meant, cupcake top w/ cream cheese frosting. yummy
Scott: well i dunno..but all i know is that i prefer cupcakes over muffins period. lol
Scott: MMM LETS GET SPRINKLES!
Jevon: remember that one time u passed out in the apt and woke up naked? ya...
Kelly: did someone say sprinkles?!
Kelly: I had Scott's sprinkles las night..
Scott: you were really good w/ my sprinkles....i hope you enjoyed my sprinkles as much as i enjoyed your pinkberry
Steven: II_i two in the pinkberry, one in the stinkberry!
Kelly: yeah, my pinkberry feels raw for some reason. you need more practice on handling pinkberrys scott
Scott: sorry ill work that stinker better next time kel ;)
Kelly: i can't wait!

sooooooo.....now all of you should be inundated with disgust!! way to go Krew!

done..

...and done!! so yesterday was the test and i'm just glad to say that i'm done with that thing, at least for the mean time. i dont really feel like there's any thing celebrate really. let's just leave it at that. but now with that stupid menace out of the way, i can play more! SO LETS GO OUT GUYS =D

another thing that i'm done w/ is Hana Yori Dango 2. i FINALLY finished the series this morning and i have to say that every drama i watch replaces my former 'favorite' drama. THIS DRAMA WAS AWESOME!! im friggin sad that its over though. Kel, you have to intro me to a new one to get my mind off this one =P but yeah...i remember a while back i was writing about how OST (soundtracks) really make or break a drama. this series has had one of the best OSTs ever. i have both seasons! one thing that disappoints me is that there is one song in the series that isn't on the soundtrack...and now im scavenging the web to find out the name of it.

here is the clip of the song on youtube. if by chance any of you know the name of it, please fill me in thanks!



on a side note, this guy is freakin awesome. on the notes section of this video, it says that he's playing it all by ear. WHAT THE!! i wish i could learn to play this song...hmm...maybe i should learn to play the piano first =P

emotional bifurcation

to demonstrate exactly what the title of this post means, here is an illustration for all your visual people:



with the GMATs less than 24 hours away, i'm falling into the depths of anxiety and grief. hell, even my face shows it with the break-outs i've been having. as i think back on the last couple of months of studying and prepping for this thing, i cant help but feel disappointed about my lack of discipline in studying harder. when looking at it in a different perspective, i realize that maybe its just my inability to pick things up quickly, especially math, like those math whizzes out there. or maybe its just my lack of test-taking skills. in any case, i definitely don't feel prepped enough to take it tomorrow. but all i can do is look this monster in the face and get it over with. it definitely wont be my last time taking this thing...so at least i should look to that as something positive, and consider this as a learning experience.

now to the flipside of things. there has to be something happy in my life. and i think i've found it....YouTube videos! hahaha so here i sit at work just thinkin bout what to watch, when it dawned on me that there was a video a while back that really made my stomach hurt. so to share my happiness at the moment with all of you, here's the video...ENJOY!



it was a video made for a class project in Korean 1A @ UCLA. HELLA FUNNYYYY! =D

my metabolism

...is on fire!! and so is my asshole!! =D

a change of pace

i think i've pretty much decided that SF is going to be my life for the next 2 or 3 years. this past weekend really gave me time to reflect on my options and i concluded that right now, it's time to explore. quite a bit of people recently have had their own divergent road in life which had them learn a little more about themselves--

Bra: teaching English in China for a year
Claire: going to anywhere but home to get an 'experience'
Carrie and Mike: wanting to move up to SF just for the same reasons as mine.

these people are just a few examples of what i need right now. B-school will always be there. suffice to say, i need a little more experience anyway (1.5 years is pretty substandard for B-school). i really want to gain some experience so that i can write a kick-ass admissions essay without feeling guilty about making it all up.

SOCAL has always been good to me. but i feel like being contained in this bubble, especially the 626, has kept me really sheltered from other things that i could be doing. i kinda feel like the high school student who wants to break free from his/her parents and go off to college far away. there's a difference between me and those kids. they actually got to spend at least 2 year of their lives branching out and experiencing new things. don't get me wrong...being in socal has definitely been awesome...it's actually been my life. but it's definitely time for a change--someone turn up Frou Frou's "Let Go" (is that even an appropriate song??)

so yeah...just my shpeel. i think the hardest part now is letting my dad know =P he's gon' be pissssseddddd haha

on another note...daylight savings is coming up! for all of you who don't know and need a reminder as to when it is, it's on NOVEMBER 4 this year. what i didnt know is that our daylight savings is actually a LAW. what the hell? i didnt know you could standardize time through a LAW. here is an exerpt of what i found regarding daylight savings:

Starting in 2007, daylight time begins in the United States on the second Sunday in March and ends on the first Sunday in November. On the second Sunday in March, clocks are set ahead one hour at 2:00 a.m. local standard time, which becomes 3:00 a.m. local daylight time. On the first Sunday in November, clocks are set back one hour at 2:00 a.m. local daylight time, which becomes 1:00 a.m. local standard time. These dates were established by the Energy Policy Act of 2005, Pub. L. no. 109-58, 119 Stat 594 (2005).

Not all places in the U.S. observe daylight time. In particular, Hawaii and most of Arizona do not use it. Indiana adopted its use beginning in 2006.

* In 2006, daylight time begins on April 2 and ends on October 29.
* In 2007, daylight time begins on March 11 and ends on November 4. [New law goes into effect.]
* In 2008, daylight time begins on March 9 and ends on November 2.

Many other countries observe some form of "summer time", but they do not necessarily change their clocks on the same dates as the U.S.

Daylight time and time zones in the U.S. are defined in the U.S. Code, Title 15, Chapter 6, Subchapter IX -

WOOOO HOOOOO.....

october blues..

today is just one of those days you wish were deleted from your story of life.

can we just flash forward to April?

yatta!!

I've been watching Hana Yori Dango 2, or HYD2 for all your newbs to this drama ;), and well, I have to say that only after watching the 1st episode of the second season last night, I realized that I've rekindled my love for asian dramas. It's funny cuz I've never really been interested in Chinese dramas (except for the ones my mom watched on TVB when I was younger..like Kindred Spirit)....but it's been Japanese dramas which have been knockin my socks off lately. I know I know...it's not the time to be letting my life dwindle away by watching dramas while neglecting my studies...but I think this one's worth it. Damn it, every time I watch a drama I think it's worth watching!!

Season 1


Season 2


You know what makes a drama 200x better? Not just the obligatory subtitles...no. But the soundtrack. Every drama that I've ever watched had me downloading the soundtrack right after the first episode. Without these songs, there would be no drama.

So why is it that I'm writing this random blog...? You guessed it. I've been listening to the soundtrack all morning =)

Here is the main song from the 2nd season (hence the name 'Main Theme'). It makes me want to do something phenomenal and claim triumph over it. Hey, maybe it might be my theme song after I finish the GMATs, which I postponed to Oct 19th, btw. But all minor details aside, and back on track with sound tracks, here it is:



I really need to finish it before I let myself drown.

80s mania

Here's a blast from the past....the 80s to be precise. This song really invokes images of flashing disco balls, strobe lights, and big aphros. My first rekindling with this song was probably at Ding-Dong-Dang back in July when Krew was all in harmonious unison as we sang this. Then I remember that JJ was watching this up in the hotel room in Oxnard a couple of weeks ago...I think this song was in Family Guy? Enough babbling....here's the song:



and here's the clip from Family Guy:



HAHAHAHA "Here's a song by a gay guy" -Brian LOL

Doesn't it just wanna make you jump into your De Lorean DMC-12 and go back to the 80s?!

SF...

....the next big chapter in my life coming soon?

all good things...

....come to an end.... with that being said...I guess this post will be a tribute to a little bugger that I grew to know pretty fast (an hour actually). Let this be a tribute to "小 mao mi" AKA 'little cat/kitten'.

Okay, who am I kidding? I hated this thing. Not only did it have a missing eye, but it was malnourished and on the brink of death by starvation. It was also selfish and didn't even appreciate the fact that we were feeding it in its time of desperation and despair. When Bra and Kel found this thing the day before, it apparently had a more pronounced hiss. What was this thing kidding? It's hiss sounded like the steam coming out of a tea kettle. Anywho...this is what it looked like...

9/3/07 (circa 4pm)




**Pictures courtesy of Kel's blogger

....... so these were all taken on Friday afternoon. By the time it hit midnight when I saw Bra, he informed me that the little bugger was gone. That's right... and what was the fate of this pesky thing?....Let me show you....

***BEWARE OF GRUESOME IMAGE AHEAD*** (hey, don't say i didn't warn you)

9/4/07 (circa 930am)



that's right....it became road kill in the driveway that it frequented.

I think this post should make us all realize how much we should appreciate our lives and remember to be thankful for all that you're given. When I saw how this cat was selfish in taking the bread and STILL hissed at me....I got mad.

Mao Mi - I'm not even gonna say RIP to you....cuz damn it, I hated you.

....I have a feeling I'm going to be haunted by the spirit of this cat for some time ....

friday blues

As I near the start of my 3 week hiatus from all social contact, I realize this is my last Friday of freedom. I'm starting to psyche up myself for what lies ahead and prepare for total isolation (minus the few study buddies that serve as my moralers during this time).

09.22.07 - I will meet my maker...the GMATs.

Hopefully I won't be a total stranger to everyone after that day commences. Help support me in my efforts to achieve that 800 I so desperately need to go to any B-school even worth going to.

Now for your listening pleasure.....Clazziquai's 'Friday Blues' :-) Man, I love this group....almost as much as I love m-flo. Alex is an awesome vocalist....DAMN IM JEALOUS!!

self-indulgent googling

Here I am at work....bored to death....thinking about something to do. So what do people do when they're bored? They search for themselves on Google! That's right folks...try it out and you'd be surprised to find stuff that is actually relevant to you on a meta-search engine!

When I typed in "Scott Anthony Lee", I got this search result which I thought was kind of stalkerish:
Names Database

Then when I searched for "Scott Lee" + "UCLA", I got this result:
Daily Bruin

So yeah....I remember a while back, I did this and I had results for Phi Alpha Delta and Alpha Phi Omega, but those bitches have since updated their websites =P Wow, I owe big props to Phillip for getting me into the Daily Bruin =D

Lesson of the Day: When bored at work, resort to Google =)

bipolar

I apologize for my last post. Things have been better since then...it was just a lot of adjustment to take care of. But anyway...just to share, this is what's on repeat at work all day :-)




It's kinda weird because if you've heard the original version of this song, it's totally not like this.....more slow and sweet. For all you know that know me, I'm more of a poppy kinda guy so this fits my taste just fine =D

eh...just thought I'd share...

i want...

for all this to just fuckin go away.



let me move on already..

forlorn

why is it that there are times when mankind can make me so forlorn about it? these are just some of the things that i'm just so sick and tired of...

- selfishness
- manipulation
- mind games
- bi-polarism
- indecisiveness
- conceit

...i think if all these things, not to mention a couple of more not on the list, were taken out of this world, it would be a much better place.

don't ya think?

technological dependence??

Vegas this weekend was awesome....good friends....good food.....good times. Getting there took a bit of planning, but in the end, I ended up driving my sister's RSX since my car's leased and well....I have a stringent mileage restriction (12,000/year -- 31 cents/additional mile) I'm currently at 27,000 miles and only 22 months....you do the math. But yeah, as it turns out, I thought I'd be fine driving this weekend without my tech gadgets in my car. Boy, was I wrong....



I realized that I'm virtually a paralyzed blindman without my navi. On the way there, I had the perception that Bra would serve as a reliable navigator. Before reaching the MGM Signature, I commited 2 missed turns cuz I was blind-sighted without my navi. That was the first scenario. The second was on the way back from the Wynn trying to get back to the hotel. Took us about 20 minutes to get back cuz I went around in circles trying to find that stupid street KORVAL. The last scenario was trying to get to the breakfast place on Sahara Ave., and freaking out when I thought that I was lost again.

All in all, I've realized that my navi is my best friend. Thank you Ismelda for always guiding me on the right path. I love you.

Vegas, in sum, was an awesome trip. Here are the highlights of my weekend:

-- eating the lunch/dinner buffet @ the Wynn (lunch transitioned into dinner without us having to pay the difference which was $9....SCORE!) we stayed there from 2:45 pm to nearly 5:30 pm =)

-- ROCK-PAPER-SCISSORS!! with everyone

-- Finally meeting up/randomly bumping into my good friend Ryan Yoshiyama after knowing him for what...6 years??

-- Almost throwing it down with some crazy black chick to told me to "Get over yourself!" and throwing a used tissue in my face

-- Laughing uncontrollably for almost 30 mins

-- Eating at Eggs and I for lunch the next day

WOOOO HOOOOOO!! I can't wait til the next Vegas trip...which'll probably be after Sept. 22nd

Carry on, folks.

new goodies on the horizon

With the new release of the new iMac, it leaves me with the question that leaves all Mac enthusiasts hanging by a thread.....to iMac or not to iMac?

The sleeker, redefined look really makes it some mentionable eye candy (although Bra would beg to differ w/ the new black front). No, but really....this post is really geared towards deciding whether or not I want one of these suckas.....actually, I guess the question really is whether or not I can afford it. The best part about this is that it's cheaper....which is really what stumps me. Why is it so much cheaper than the previous iMacs which started ran on average $100 more than the current ones? I'm sure that with Leopard OSX coming out, devoted Mac users are going to suck these babies right off the shelves and pretty soon, Macs will dominate the world just as Google has. It's just a matter of time before everyone has a Mac in their home MUAHAHA =)

In other debut news, the new 2008 Mercedes Benz C-Class is coming out....and not with just one type of model, but TWO. The new C-Class will have both the Sports line and the Luxury line. I'm heading to the C-Drive event next Saturday to test drive these things w/ Nutz and Seiji. Warren pointed out how they look like Bimmers now....well I can't detest that. I think that's what makes them all the more appealing (discounting the whole free maintenance for 4 years/40,000 miles). But yeah, the C-Class definitely has the potential to be the replacement of ISmelda when she goes back to Lexus October of '09. Hopefully the price won't be a killer and I'll be able to at least live a little more than from paycheck to paycheck =P GOOD SHIT!

Well that's the end of this post....why does it feel like I advertised more than blogged? HAHA Okay, next entry will be more personal, I promise. :-D

housewarming

I think that I've finally moved on with my life--moved on to bigger, better, blogger things. Hell, I even got rid of the time that I usually stick in my posts cuz this thing actually displays the time. That's the difference between refined/sophisticated blogging and well....Xanga.

In retrospect, I must say that Xanga/Janga/Xangay/Zanga/X was definitely good to me for the oh, 5.5 years that I used it. Everyone had a "Xanga" regardless of whether or not they actually used it. Another plus was that the stalking capabilities on that blogsite were endless. I enjoyed how everyone had a Xanga, so it was always exciting to get a notification in the e-mail stating 'New webblog comment on your post!" oh....those were the good ole days.

It feels a bit strange to be here on blogspot. I know many of the 'older kids' use this site (or at least that's what I thought back then when I was a wee little 1st year in college) Maybe this is a sign that I've finally grown up--broken out of my 'little kid' phase. Yeah right....Who am I kidding? How can I let moving to a new blogsite be indicative of my growth?

Well anyway.....HAPPY HOUSEWARMING TO ME on this first day of blogspot. I think Kel and I made a very wise decision. As quoted on her last Xanga entry, this is the magic in the making:

[11:51] aerithkel: should i switch to blogspot too?
[11:53] scottagecheez: xanga's gettin a lil overplayed...
[11:53] scottagecheez: i mean outplayed
[11:53] aerithkel: hahah
[11:53] aerithkel: so what does that mean
[11:54] aerithkel: should we make a move
[11:54] scottagecheez: HAHAH
[11:54] scottagecheez: what do you mean movie?
[11:54] aerithkel: move
[11:54] scottagecheez: LOL
[11:54] scottagecheez: oh jeez
[11:54] scottagecheez: i cant read
[11:54] aerithkel: hahah
[11:54] scottagecheez: i kinda wanna migrate
[11:55] aerithkel: maybe
[11:55] aerithkel: if we do
[11:55] aerithkel: we should do it together
[11:55] scottagecheez: hahaha group effort
[11:55] aerithkel: we should make a move together
[11:55] scottagecheez: maybe we'll get a group discount?
[11:55] aerithkel: hahah
[11:55] aerithkel: umm scott
[11:55] aerithkel: it's free
[11:55] scottagecheez: btw kel have you thought about joining a gym?
[11:56] aerithkel: hahah

....and there you have it!! Man, I am such a pushover....